dreams

there is this song that i am searching for. its in jap and i like it very much. its by a group called dreams come true and the title of this song is Nandodemo. quite catchy.
anyway thats beside the point for this post tonight.
i was thinking deeply about my goals, dreams and plans. those that i made when i was little, younger and now. Have i fulfilled them or have nightmares came from them all. who was to blame for the dreams that weren't fulfilled? was it the curse of procrastination ? or was it all planned to b7e. no one knows for sure.

Dreams, goals, aspirations that i once had.

age 8 : To be a scientist, inventor (think i somewhat fulfilled part of it when i did the choc project)
age 13: To perform in public with an instrument (did that in poly with my guitar accompanying the harmonica group)
age 17: To own various eateries and treat my frens to nice food or to start up a F&B business(no where close)
age 18: To have a business alongside with an orphanage that hold kids whom parents aren't able to take care of them. (helps prevent abortion)
age 19: To bring my mum to travel to many different places in the world (actually its fulfilling her dream)
age 20: To bring my love one to a place unimaginable (only few would know)
age 22: To learn to forgive myself and fear the Lord with all my heart.

Dreams are always alive if you continue dreaming. jus don let it die. Plan and look ahead and day by day continue to think about it and achieve it. For tomorrow brings a better tomorrow.
At the end of the day, if I have failed to achieve it, i can only say that the best dream that was fulfilled was being loved and to be able to love. =)

Pathway to Heaven clip

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sometimes we think of going back to the Lord. sometimes we prefer to sin away. it is said that we are in control of our lives but sometimes i feel that the Lord is in control, He holds the past the present and the future and know the choices we are going to make. the hurt the pain that we cause to others and most importantly, ourselves. How i wish that with the spirit within us, we can live our life blameless and righteous to love and be loved. btw its a nice video kel. hope u din hurt ur lungs that bad. =)

love is in the air...

Happy Mother's day to all Mother's the world could ever have. All the hardship of giving birth and painstaking efforts to educate the children to become people with a better life, requires a lot of tender, loving, care. This is the love that can't be bought at any price. For none is such that a mother would give up everything for the child.

The above mentioned is what most families are expriencing but there are many in the world without a clue to what a mother is, or even is there such thing as a mother. They were abandon and thrown clueless to where or who they are. Poverty engulfed them. Causing them to be stuck in the streets where beggers and street rats roam. Rusty, dented trash cans that were knocked over by many scavengers. This is the life of some that might not be even able to read.

I am glad. thankful. for the opportunity to read, play and have a shelter over my head and most importantly, have a mum that cares. I pray for the children in the world that needs that emotional healing. the love that reaches out to them. The love of the Lord. I pray that I will continuously be thankful and grateful to the people around me for that is where love begins.

Finding the happiest moment of my life~*

After watching a local sitcom on tv, i wonder the above statement.
How one day someone would come to me and ask when was the happiest moment of my life.
The day I did well for exams? The day when my friends celebrated my birthday with me ? The day when I had acceptance from the gal that I like ? Will that be the happiest moment in my life ?

I really don't know. I dont wish to disappoint the people that was mentioned above. After thinking very hard, I don't know. I only know that singing makes me happy. Listening to nice music makes me happy. Singing songs to God and to people that accepts me makes me happy. These are the happiest moment in my life. To sing. I don't sing beautifully and I'm not a good singer but I like music. I like to perform. I always wanted to perform on stage but I know that I will do badly in it. Since young, I wanted to play the piano. I cant learn as my mum have to take care of me single-handedly which is tough and she doesn't have enough to place me in lessons. Maybe one day I will take up piano lessons. Currently, I enrolled for a basic cantonese course. I like cantonese songs. They sound very nice and I hope to sing to a tune one day. Till then, please pardon this frog that is croaking~*

I just want to be happy~*

death it seems not...

i fear that it would happen to me... dying due to work... maybe one day maybe today...
haha... seems laughable... a NSF dying with heart attack due to the stress at work in camp.
but it is true.. the number to suicide cases unheard of and the number to calls that come in to the counselling hotline, they are all evidence of the truth that all are hiding it.
The stress, the deadlines, the reports no one would ever thought a NSF would have so much to worry about.
I'm glad that its the last 4months in my NS. I had learnt alot from my previous superior whom took great care of me and the rest of his subordinates. Even though he had a lot of struggles with his personal life, he did not show it all.

Casting all these aside, I sympathize with the lady who died recently that was featured in the neighbourhood newspaper. All she did was trying her best to earn as much money as she could to being her beloved mother for a vacation. I could imagine the stress and the struggles she has. I guess I would have done the same and work very hard knowing that a guy should placed his career before anything else (old wives tale).

I'm glad that this May first, I have the time to sleep and woke up late. To talk to God and thank him for the many things that he has blessed me with, frens, family and life everlasting. Though I'm returning back to camp to compile the work that is not completed tonight, I'm appreciate the fellow frens that I have in camp that really perk me up when I'm struggling and gave me tons of encouragement. I thank God for placing them in my life.